Joy to the World - Jiyun has arrived

Chuanxiang and Esther have their 1st baby!! and the baby's name is jiyun. name of an official in the ancient times..

esther kept saying that she wish to see the child of syed and i; then i asked her whether i can give birth without getting married.. haha..

hmm.. i would love to have children too.. but the idea of giving birth is scary!!!

tired..

went for 2nd session of therapy today.. it never fails to make me feel stretched and tired.. i am glad that i am going through the therapy.. i know that its all in the name of a better and happier life and future..

pessimism lurking

met zhonghui late last night and chat till the cows come home.. chat at al-ameen 24 hours then still chat as we walked from woodlands al-almeen to sembawang.. was so tired that i gave up and jio him to take a cab.. haha..

we talked about life issues..

i never fail to feel weird whenever i talk about my own life... he said that he sensed a sad inner me.. my logic tells me that i should be happy and contented with life but my inner self is not happy.. just like the way i felt when i spoke to teng when we were on the phone the previous night.. i said that i am getting slightly excited and happy but teng said that i don't sound happy when i said that!.. haha.. paradox...

am i happy?

am i as idealistic as zhonghui describes me? i paint a picture to beautiful and expect too much from life such that i am not happy with life?

so... syed.. u were saying that believing in Allah would make my life more complete?
;)

haiz... what is life?... so significant yet so insignificant...

another path i have taken in life

it has been 48 days since i left the service... 1st aug was my last day... have been spending my days meeting up with me... was a humongous amount of sleep i had at the start-sounds like really lots to recuperate manz! haha..

rejected for secondment to npcc hq..
rejected thrice by prisons..
oh well. its fine

cos im going to OBS!!! yeah... this would be a much more exciting journey..
and heck those stupid people who do not value my contribution and suspect my sincerity... to hell lah...

excited..

spoke about wedding plans too..

finally.. i get what i deserve.. life is turning for the better now...
=D