Not to our favour though...
Spotted as usual for 2 days.. urgh! hated the anxiety of waiting for menses to come. I have always hoped that the spotting meant that I am pregnant and the embryo is burrowing into my uterus. FAT hope!
Menses came on Sunday, 17 March 2013- It is considered as Day 0.
Anxious.. Cannot sleep well.. woked up in the middle of the night and asked "Why must it be to go through IVF? Why can't I conceive like normal being?" Tried to shake of the thoughts then more came "My hubby will not be around at night for the entire week! I have to self-administer the jabs and I will be alone at home *frown*" Shake off bad thoughts - ok, sleep!
Day 1 (18 Mar 2013, Monday)
- called KKH IVF Centre. Kind-sounding nurse. Seriously, ever since I transferred from NUH, I have never regretted! KKH is really a class of it's own! The staff are experience and very polite. Very professional! She returned my call and told me to go for scan between 8am to 10an the following day.
not exactly a good sleep for the night...
Day 2 (19 Mar 2013, Tuesday)
- woke up really early to take a bus to KKH. reached at 7.30am to meet you with my hubby who travelled from work. Had tasty vending machine toasted sandwich.
We waited till 8am for the scan. Meanwhile, anxiety stroke; I had a few runs to the toilet. I am really anxious whenever it comes to the virginal scan since I had a bad experience with the previous pregnant doctor who was rough when she did the pap smear test. Not only was she rough, she was very unkind with her words. =(
When we entered IVF centre, we were shocked as the room was packed! "Wah, so many people here already!" We should had entered at 7.30am and just waited inside the clinic..... Ok.. wait and wait... another run to the toilet... and finally my turn! sharks... felt like I need to go to the toilet again! but I just emptied my bladder! urgh...
Ok... my ex-student is the radiologist support staff.. now what? ok don't care, I just have to deliver my message.
"Doctor?"
"I am not Doctor."
"Ok. I have very scared. I had a bad experience before."
"Ok. I will be gentle."
Tensed up! Then she cleansed my ** and inserted the probe. tensed!! breathe breathe! endure endure.. urgh!!!! felt like peeing!!! discomfort.. slight pain. more scared than anything! I shifted and the probe slided out.
"Oops, let me insert again"
I was hoping that I would faint so that I do not have to go through that!
".. lining... number 4...." she instructed my ex-student to record it.
"If I ask you to clear your bladder, could you?"
"hmmm... maybe can..."
"Ok, then you go and we will call your number again..."
Oh my God..... I should have gone to pee again and again! Now I have to let the probe be inserted again or the third time!!! urgh!!!......
*rush to toilet* *relieved*
"..ok, she is back.." I heard my ex-student said to radiologist.
ok... one more time for me. I apologised profusely... Don't think the radiologist completely got the picture about why I am so tensed! Nevertheless, she kept ensuring me and telling me "It is not so bad right?"
"...lining.. number 4... left... right... " ok, finally done!!
*HAPPY and GLAD*
Next up.. wait... waited for admin as well as prescription. signed the papers for Medisave and got the prescription to collect medication. Another waiting queue... and they run out of a medication that I needed.. meaning? more waiting time.... ok... maybe I could make use of the time at the social work unit. Wah piangz.... another queue... ok... wait... counselling appointment fixed. hubby back from medicine collection (It is always great to have two people)
Back to IVF clinic-another wait-for the nurse to teach me how to jab myself. Ah! I met someone else I know! Had a short but nice chat. She might be the one of the embryologists who will help us in the labs. Small world...
Jabs? Not really scared.. Ok, until the moment I had to do it. It felt weird stabbing myself with the needle. I wanted to hurry with the injection but it hurt a little when the hormone liquid is squeezed. The resultant?... a bruise. Oh well, it is still not as bad as the scan!
I will have to self-administer the rest of the jabs as well... 2 more jabs for now. I will need to return on Friday.
